Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Once again... A new beginning....

Here I am.... In a new country... A new city... You know all the while I keep going on and on at destiny and fate.... The gods do have their own cute little way of putting things back into place and into the right perspective.....

I remember just about two weeks back - the frame of mind I was in... Was totally different and absurdly narrow... I had focussed down to a little dot from the galaxy of space available... I keep doing that... And that's when my actions all move away from the person I am... and the person I wanna be.... And i land up hurting myself... Coz that's the only way or area i get hurt.... My sensitive region...My Achilles heel!!

But now... Things are changing... My schedule does not give me the time to reflect on the past... And only prods me on to reflecting on the future... and think about what lies ahead.... This is God's own lil way of setting me right... Or so I hope... I hardly have time to sleep... But still atleast I wanna sleep... A while ago... I couldn't get myself to sleep...

And now I have to rethink the things I'm gonna be doing over the next few years! Do I want to go back to india? Do i want to stay here? Or do I want to go to some other country.... And what do I want to do with myself.... I guess as time goes over these 16 months... I am sure to be able to answer most of these questions....

And once again.... I go back into the shell of a person I am... and wait for my internal maintenance and repair to take place... and bring me back to the person I am... And hopefully... I won't go back to being the stupid foolish guy I've been......

Till then... To life... and to my new life...... Cheers.....